Lost Soul

A vampire am I, a ghastly sight
Awake from my tomb, every night,
Driven by hunger, a thirst for blood
Stalk in †Hε corners and drink †Hε lot,
We lust for others we cannot have,
A lust we hide our immortal lives.
Remember we fly & race †Hε wind,
Remember we cry & none bare sin.
We bear great strength, ten men??? You wish
We lift up vessels, it is ‎​№ myth.
We move like shadows across †Hε night,
Our eyes twinkling under intense light.
My brethren & I cease to age
& lest I forget, we heal like mages
Buh for all this, I'd prefer another
Buh hush now & leave, I hear †Hε others....

fantasy

Somewhere in my mind there is a tiny place that you will never find, a place where there are leaping unicorns with diamond eyes, beautiful fairies and murderous spies, there are candy on trees with thorns. I have rode on those unicorns, danced till dawn. I have killed certain people you never knew before. You'll never find that place up there hiding in my mind buh I'm sure you have your own out there somewhere, in it all †Hε time.

somewhere I belong

Where do I go??? Like when I find myself in a funk or I just really need to think. I wish I had that one special place where I could be for hours n hours n not even know that that much time went by. A place where †Hε chances of someone else being there wiv me are sooooo slim that its almost like †Hε place doesn't exist. Don't get me wrong, I love my room its my favorite place ever buh sometimes its just not enough. Sometimes I need to feel wind blowing, I need †Hε air, †Hε beauty of nature, I need it all. I hope I find that special place, my special place, my me place.......

budding

Whew!!! Now I can gladly say it went well, him being all sweet n all. Me not having found a single reason to up n run immediately after our first conversation..... :). We went for a walk n I must say he's got a great sense of humour, makes me laugh a whole lot. His height is just the way I like it; way taller than me, n he's into the whole hand holding thing (kinda cute really)) oh oh n he's got some serious PDA going on, that part makes me shy. He's got like tons of friends, I'm beginning to lose count of 'em. I mean a girl can only meet so many people in one day. All in all there were no disasters whatsoever n this being my life I'd say its a huge step into the start of something beautiful.

self-doubt

Meeting my somewhat boyfriend today for the first ‎​time and I must admit I'm plenty nervous. Yeah I know, we've been somewhat dating/ had a thing for over a month now n we've never met.... All we've seen are pictures of each other n he's goodlooking n all, tall, funny, smart, n real sweet. Buh wat if he's got annoying traits you know?? Like what if he's completely opposite from wat I get over the phone??? What if he doesn't like ME when he sees me?? All these questions, I'm almost ready to come up wiv an excuse not to meet him. You know, not to ruin the fantasy. I've barely ever been so devoid of confidence like this ever before. I gotta go, get dressed now...... Wish me luck.