The Pessimist

I'm a full fledged pessimist. There, i said it. I believe its some sorta defense mechanism for me. Disappointments, mishaps, betrayals n stuff dont weigh me down much cos in a way i was expecting it all. I'd just sit n believe this person isnt really into me so they'll definitely hurt me buh the whole time i guess i just expect it so much that i give them reasons to n end up pushing them away single handedly. Guess u can say i've got trust issues.......ok maybe just issues generally :). I know its not the best of things for me to be buh i needed a way out from under the fear of getting hurt n i guess i just got too comfortable......way to comfortable. My friend said i need help, i need to let someone in..... He's probably right huh...

Its A Paramore Thing

I find myself relating to Paramore songs so much its almost scary, they are wivout a doubt, my favourite rock band. First time I heard of paramore was 2008, i stumbled upon the video of 'thats what you get' buh there was no volume so i didn't think much of it. I noticed the name of the band though. Much later i thought to check 'em out n i just fell in love instantly. Songs like 'franklin', 'my heart', 'when it rains' among others just did it for me. Then 'brand new eyes' dropped and my love just went through the roof. I love the whole album, some songs more than others definitely. My fave's are 'The only exception' 'Brick by boring brick' 'ignorance'. I just love paramore.

Change

i've always been one for new adventures n stuff.. The whole spontaneity thing really works for me. Thats why its weird that i,ve been saying ''no'' to practically everything; i'd rather stay in, not hook up.... Its sooooo not me. I'm not sure if i should be worried or relieved that the phase is over cos lets face it, half the time it caused me more harm than good... Buh then again i do kinda miss it, not having to think hard about it, just doing it... Wiv the whole ''what happens, happens'' attitude. Maybe its just a lil break... I hope. :D